Life is flying and i'm meerly a passenger

I graduate December 23.
And i am truely scared of that statement.

I dont know where i am going.
I dont know what i'll be doing.
And i dont know how things will turn out.

And those 3 things alone are driving me crazy.

Change

I'm so ready for change. A change in everything around me. I want to be noticed in a positive light. I want more friends i can trust. i don't want to feel used and tossed aside. I want to feel change inside of me. I want to feel genuinely happy with myself. I want to lose 10 lbs. I want to start recording my music. Iwant people to hear what message i have to bring. I want to be closer with God. I want to take larger steps in my faith. I want to hear laughter instead of arguements. I want teachers and administratos to pay attention. I want peace.
I just want change.